Ok...so to my readers...mostly Mia and Pink teacup...<3
I deleted all my posts about Princess...and I have decided to weed out the bad feelings I have for her.
Mostly because I feel....guilty. And to be truthful, Jealous.
She has her life, I have mine, and they are incomparable...
I am sure there are reasons for her to be jealous of me, and I need to take the higher road and not be so petty about my insecurities...
Thank you for listening to all my rants, and I appreciate your support...
Much love, much, much love.
Monday, June 29, 2009
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
Wedding invites....
Ok ladies...you asked for it...here are the pics of my wedding invites...
They are STILL not completely put together and I have to send them out next week...
wish me luck...
figured it out!
So....I figured out how to post pictures...heres one of me and K....now i need to upload the pics of my invites for all you to see!
Sunday, June 21, 2009
Yikes!
I have no idea who I am anymore.... Can you help me?
Where is the brooding bitch that I see in the mirror everyday?
Fuck My Life...am I actually happy?!
I know its only been a week or so but honestly, me working has changed my whole outlook completely!
I'm not home enough to be totally consumed by the stress of child-rearing, and I don't work enough to not have time with my family.
Perfect balance.
I contribute this fact that I flirt immensely with my new boss....lets call him Todd, and I have landed an excellent schedule.
Sunday - Off....I LOVE this, Sunday Funday = no work. Come football season I will be knuckling buffalo wings and beer...without having to find coverage for my shift.
Monday - Work the lunch shift, out by 5.
Tuesday - off
Wednesday - night shift...starts at 5 and I'm home by 10
Thursday - night shift...and I get to work in the lounge area, so I cocktail waitress...meaning I bat my eyelashes and shake my ass to all the 30+ men out looking to escape life, or their wives.
Friday - off ...I may be a mother of 3 but I also like to go out and get completely smashed once in a while.
Saturday - Double...this is the only day that sucks.. but I worked last night and made $400. Thank you very much!
So thanks to my good looks and charm I have the best schedule in the joint. Todd is so cute. Wish he wasn't married, and wish that I wasn't about to be married. ha ha
He's a little overweight but I am not one to be a stickler for shape. As long as you re not over 300 lbs I'm game. Its more about personality for me. Granted, his mushy lips and sparkling blue eyes are what drew me to him in the first place, but its his puppy dog demeanor and laugh that hooked me.
I know what you re thinking...I am not planning on breaking up his marriage and or my relationship, it just gives me a sense of excitement to get to work and look decent, and run circles around the other waitresses.... always the competitor.
Where is the brooding bitch that I see in the mirror everyday?
Fuck My Life...am I actually happy?!
I know its only been a week or so but honestly, me working has changed my whole outlook completely!
I'm not home enough to be totally consumed by the stress of child-rearing, and I don't work enough to not have time with my family.
Perfect balance.
I contribute this fact that I flirt immensely with my new boss....lets call him Todd, and I have landed an excellent schedule.
Sunday - Off....I LOVE this, Sunday Funday = no work. Come football season I will be knuckling buffalo wings and beer...without having to find coverage for my shift.
Monday - Work the lunch shift, out by 5.
Tuesday - off
Wednesday - night shift...starts at 5 and I'm home by 10
Thursday - night shift...and I get to work in the lounge area, so I cocktail waitress...meaning I bat my eyelashes and shake my ass to all the 30+ men out looking to escape life, or their wives.
Friday - off ...I may be a mother of 3 but I also like to go out and get completely smashed once in a while.
Saturday - Double...this is the only day that sucks.. but I worked last night and made $400. Thank you very much!
So thanks to my good looks and charm I have the best schedule in the joint. Todd is so cute. Wish he wasn't married, and wish that I wasn't about to be married. ha ha
He's a little overweight but I am not one to be a stickler for shape. As long as you re not over 300 lbs I'm game. Its more about personality for me. Granted, his mushy lips and sparkling blue eyes are what drew me to him in the first place, but its his puppy dog demeanor and laugh that hooked me.
I know what you re thinking...I am not planning on breaking up his marriage and or my relationship, it just gives me a sense of excitement to get to work and look decent, and run circles around the other waitresses.... always the competitor.
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
I'm a big girl now!
So. . . I started my new job last Thursday.
Waitressing at a sports bar that just opened a couple towns over. This sports bar has two other locations in Massachusetts...and they do extremely well..
If this past week is any indication, the new location will be just as busy.
I love having money in my pocket. K would give me money if I asked but I always feel guilty.
He goes out and works in the sun, snow, and rain...and I just spend his money. That's how he feels anyway.
He grumbles about every little penny i ask for. Generally its to feed our children, or to put gas in the car. He always gives it to me...but not without some flack. And FINALLY I don't have to ask him for a cent.
The only down side to this whole work thing is that I NEVER see K.
With the exception of Sunday I have worked everyday since last Thursday.
He comes home from work at 4:15 and I leave the second he has his boots off. The earliest I am home is 11pm and K is wayyyy beyond lights out at that point.
I can't even tell you the last time we had sex!
The point to my story here is that this whole work thing has helped me realize something...I really do truly love K. If i didn't I wouldn't miss him as much right?
I HATE to admit it but I am actually missing his smart ass comments and remarks.
Typically these remarks are enough for me to launch a hard object at him, yet I constantly replay them in my head.
Don't you think its funny that the things that make you fall in love with someone often turn out to be the very things that make you hate them?
But if you step back for a moment and remove yourself from the situation you will fall in love with a persons quirks all over again.
* I apologize to my faithful readers who were expecting this blog to be full of my usual banter and bitching...I'll be back to my usual self soon.
: )
Waitressing at a sports bar that just opened a couple towns over. This sports bar has two other locations in Massachusetts...and they do extremely well..
If this past week is any indication, the new location will be just as busy.
I love having money in my pocket. K would give me money if I asked but I always feel guilty.
He goes out and works in the sun, snow, and rain...and I just spend his money. That's how he feels anyway.
He grumbles about every little penny i ask for. Generally its to feed our children, or to put gas in the car. He always gives it to me...but not without some flack. And FINALLY I don't have to ask him for a cent.
The only down side to this whole work thing is that I NEVER see K.
With the exception of Sunday I have worked everyday since last Thursday.
He comes home from work at 4:15 and I leave the second he has his boots off. The earliest I am home is 11pm and K is wayyyy beyond lights out at that point.
I can't even tell you the last time we had sex!
The point to my story here is that this whole work thing has helped me realize something...I really do truly love K. If i didn't I wouldn't miss him as much right?
I HATE to admit it but I am actually missing his smart ass comments and remarks.
Typically these remarks are enough for me to launch a hard object at him, yet I constantly replay them in my head.
Don't you think its funny that the things that make you fall in love with someone often turn out to be the very things that make you hate them?
But if you step back for a moment and remove yourself from the situation you will fall in love with a persons quirks all over again.
* I apologize to my faithful readers who were expecting this blog to be full of my usual banter and bitching...I'll be back to my usual self soon.
: )
Thursday, June 4, 2009
Please RSVP
One of my bridesmaids came over for dinner tonight....turkey tacos. Effing delicious...I had like seven, no lie.
After dinner she asked how the wedding plans and stuff were coming...I told her that everything was all set. I just needed to figure out a way to pay for it all. I have gone a TAD bit overboard with the whole budget. Overboard meaning - I never established one.
So besides the whole 20k in the hole, all I have left to do is assemble the invitations.
Yes assemble. For those of you who are not married yet, like my pink teacuped friend http://thegirlwiththepinkteacup.blogspot.com/, trust me...go for the invitations that are printed on one piece of paper.
I went for the pocket invite. Its pretty, and it says ..hey look ..i spent $800 on invitations...don't you want to be me?
Honestly the only reason I picked these ones, besides the fact that they are gorgeous... Is because K's brother is getting married 5 weeks before us and his fiance is the epitome of the urban princess...
Everything revolves around her.
Her parents are paying for her wedding and there has not been a request that they have turned down. Nothing is too expensive for their baby.
I , on the other hand , am paying for EVERYTHING alone....well I should say K is paying for everything.
he he he he
But...is it awful that while I was sitting here tonight attaching glue dots to the backside of the invites, I was imagining my life somewhere else....WITH someone else?
I love K, I do...but marriage? Ugh...just saying the word makes me feel like a 90 year old woman.
Is it possible to be sexy and fun while your a married mother?
After dinner she asked how the wedding plans and stuff were coming...I told her that everything was all set. I just needed to figure out a way to pay for it all. I have gone a TAD bit overboard with the whole budget. Overboard meaning - I never established one.
So besides the whole 20k in the hole, all I have left to do is assemble the invitations.
Yes assemble. For those of you who are not married yet, like my pink teacuped friend http://thegirlwiththepinkteacup.blogspot.com/, trust me...go for the invitations that are printed on one piece of paper.
I went for the pocket invite. Its pretty, and it says ..hey look ..i spent $800 on invitations...don't you want to be me?
Honestly the only reason I picked these ones, besides the fact that they are gorgeous... Is because K's brother is getting married 5 weeks before us and his fiance is the epitome of the urban princess...
Everything revolves around her.
Her parents are paying for her wedding and there has not been a request that they have turned down. Nothing is too expensive for their baby.
I , on the other hand , am paying for EVERYTHING alone....well I should say K is paying for everything.
he he he he
But...is it awful that while I was sitting here tonight attaching glue dots to the backside of the invites, I was imagining my life somewhere else....WITH someone else?
I love K, I do...but marriage? Ugh...just saying the word makes me feel like a 90 year old woman.
Is it possible to be sexy and fun while your a married mother?
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
In the name of love
I just started following this blog http://tovadarling.blogspot.com/2009/06/tovas-totally-awkward-tuesdays.html
And "Tova" requested that her followers post an awkward story in their blog..
Here is mine.
A few weeks ago, K got home from work early. The boys were still at school and our daughter was down for a nap. We decided to lay down ourselves.
If you re a woman and you have the time during the day to lay down and rest that is exactly what you want to do. REST.
But in "man-world" resting is just a shorter name for afternoon delight.
I am not gonna lie, it felt good to be completely naked in the middle of the day. Our usual sex routine is late at night when the kids are asleep and the most clothes that come off are one leg out of my pants. Sexy right?
So whatever back to the point...During this sex-sesh I was on top and K's hands had a vice-like grasp on my ass...( too much info probably but I need you to visualize this to really get what happens next) ...and when we finish I roll over and lay on my back.
All is quiet until I hear a tiny little voice...my daughters...whispering in her daddy's ear.
What did she say you ask?
"Daddy, stop squeezing Mommy's butt like that, be gentle."
Then she gives us this knowing look and leaves the room.
I am mortified and swear to never have sex again unless the kids aren't home.
K is hysterically laughing...I'm sorry did I miss something? Our three year old just witnessed something she shouldn't have. The worst part about it is...she gave K pointers!
Now every time she comes up behind me she gives my ass a pat and says "see...gentle."
Perceptive child.
And "Tova" requested that her followers post an awkward story in their blog..
Here is mine.
A few weeks ago, K got home from work early. The boys were still at school and our daughter was down for a nap. We decided to lay down ourselves.
If you re a woman and you have the time during the day to lay down and rest that is exactly what you want to do. REST.
But in "man-world" resting is just a shorter name for afternoon delight.
I am not gonna lie, it felt good to be completely naked in the middle of the day. Our usual sex routine is late at night when the kids are asleep and the most clothes that come off are one leg out of my pants. Sexy right?
So whatever back to the point...During this sex-sesh I was on top and K's hands had a vice-like grasp on my ass...( too much info probably but I need you to visualize this to really get what happens next) ...and when we finish I roll over and lay on my back.
All is quiet until I hear a tiny little voice...my daughters...whispering in her daddy's ear.
What did she say you ask?
"Daddy, stop squeezing Mommy's butt like that, be gentle."
Then she gives us this knowing look and leaves the room.
I am mortified and swear to never have sex again unless the kids aren't home.
K is hysterically laughing...I'm sorry did I miss something? Our three year old just witnessed something she shouldn't have. The worst part about it is...she gave K pointers!
Now every time she comes up behind me she gives my ass a pat and says "see...gentle."
Perceptive child.
Monday, June 1, 2009
Holy Shit!
Would you believe me if I told you that I am up , showered, and ready for the day! ?
It's 10 am here...and usually right about now I am still in my pajamas lounging on the couch.
Not today! I decided I was going to try something different.
I got up, made the kids breakfast, got the middle one on the bus.
Then I did two loads of laundry...actually folded them and put them away. Usually I would just leave the clean clothes on top of the dryer and root through it for something to wear. Eventually K would get sick of it and fold them himself.
Maybe he is right... I am lazy.
Whatevs...last load is in the dryer now, dishes are done and I am immaculate.
Maybe K would pay more attention to me if I didn't look like a bag of smashed assholes every time he saw me.
Seriously, most days when he gets home I am still in the clothes I slept in.
The kids are always taken care of and clean but I just don't have the energy to do it for myself.
But today I feel hot. My wedding diet (not eating) is working and I am down 3 more lbs.
Hair is dry, little swipe of mascara and I am ready to tackle those "trophy wives" I run into at Kindergarten pick-up.
Then it's off to the grocery store so I can get the stuff needed to make a good meal for the fam. Hell maybe I'll even take the kids out to lunch.
Only set back of today is that my babysitter for my hair school apt. cancelled on me.
I will have to reschedule but I WILL make it happen.
Whew...I need a nap.
It's 10 am here...and usually right about now I am still in my pajamas lounging on the couch.
Not today! I decided I was going to try something different.
I got up, made the kids breakfast, got the middle one on the bus.
Then I did two loads of laundry...actually folded them and put them away. Usually I would just leave the clean clothes on top of the dryer and root through it for something to wear. Eventually K would get sick of it and fold them himself.
Maybe he is right... I am lazy.
Whatevs...last load is in the dryer now, dishes are done and I am immaculate.
Maybe K would pay more attention to me if I didn't look like a bag of smashed assholes every time he saw me.
Seriously, most days when he gets home I am still in the clothes I slept in.
The kids are always taken care of and clean but I just don't have the energy to do it for myself.
But today I feel hot. My wedding diet (not eating) is working and I am down 3 more lbs.
Hair is dry, little swipe of mascara and I am ready to tackle those "trophy wives" I run into at Kindergarten pick-up.
Then it's off to the grocery store so I can get the stuff needed to make a good meal for the fam. Hell maybe I'll even take the kids out to lunch.
Only set back of today is that my babysitter for my hair school apt. cancelled on me.
I will have to reschedule but I WILL make it happen.
Whew...I need a nap.
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