I'm a big girl now!

So. . . I started my new job last Thursday.
Waitressing at a sports bar that just opened a couple towns over. This sports bar has two other locations in Massachusetts...and they do extremely well..
If this past week is any indication, the new location will be just as busy.
I love having money in my pocket. K would give me money if I asked but I always feel guilty.
He goes out and works in the sun, snow, and rain...and I just spend his money. That's how he feels anyway.
He grumbles about every little penny i ask for. Generally its to feed our children, or to put gas in the car. He always gives it to me...but not without some flack. And FINALLY I don't have to ask him for a cent.
The only down side to this whole work thing is that I NEVER see K.
With the exception of Sunday I have worked everyday since last Thursday.
He comes home from work at 4:15 and I leave the second he has his boots off. The earliest I am home is 11pm and K is wayyyy beyond lights out at that point.
I can't even tell you the last time we had sex!

The point to my story here is that this whole work thing has helped me realize something...I really do truly love K. If i didn't I wouldn't miss him as much right?
I HATE to admit it but I am actually missing his smart ass comments and remarks.
Typically these remarks are enough for me to launch a hard object at him, yet I constantly replay them in my head.
Don't you think its funny that the things that make you fall in love with someone often turn out to be the very things that make you hate them?
But if you step back for a moment and remove yourself from the situation you will fall in love with a persons quirks all over again.


* I apologize to my faithful readers who were expecting this blog to be full of my usual banter and bitching...I'll be back to my usual self soon.
: )